Friday, December 5, 2014

It Ends Here

There's an old cliche` that goes, "The buck stops here." I'm not quite sure if the buck is a deer or a dollar. Whatever it is, it stops here. Right here in this spot, the buck stops. For me, the proverbial buck was the mental and emotional abuse that I suffered for way too long. All the depression, intimidation, and past hurtful words spoken over me throughout my life stopped the night God healed me.

To be quite honest, I think the Yield sign had been put out a week earlier when I made the decision that I wasn't going to go through any of that anymore and decided I wanted my mind healed. Though I made the decision, the healing didn't happen until I actually walked to the front of my church and requested prayer and healing and admitted what I wanted healed from. That's when it ended right then and there.

Many people suffer depression and intimidation. They deal with anxiety, panic disorder, fear, and many other things associated with emotional and mental issues. It doesn't mean that they are crazy. It just means that somewhere in their lives they were verbally abused by someone, or several someone's and it affected them strongly.

It may have started when you were a child. A parent, grandparent, teacher, or someone you knew said something to you that was hurtful. Many people use cutting remarks and pass them off as jokes. It might be funny to them, it may be funny to you the first time. But when it continues over time, and when it is used to control you, it's no longer funny or a joke. It's abuse. Whether it was an insult, a cutting remark, a derogatory statement, something that belittled you or made you feel uncomfortable or less than, the words of those we love can and do cause lifelong damage. I know. I lived it.

You don't have to live with it any longer. It ends here. By making the decision to stop the abuse in general and from continuing, you are taking steps to make your life better. But you have to make the decision. For me, I had no idea how to make it stop. I didn't know how to make people stop saying things to me. I also didn't know how to make the words in my head stop. I knew that God wanted to heal me, yet I didn't know how to ask Him.  However, I knew enough to go to prayer warriors at church for help.

 Are any of you sick? You should call for the elders of the church to come and pray over you, anointing you with oil in the name of the Lord. ~James 5:14 (NLT)

Getting to the point where you know that you can't continue in the suffering is a big step. Going to someone who you know can help you is life-changing. God wants to heal you. He's simply waiting for you to decide and take the first step. Once healed, you can begin a new life and can also help someone else find the healing you did.

Since being healed, I now stand at the front of my church each week and offer to pray for others. I love to help people find hope and healing from whatever it is making them suffer.

You can decide today that no matter what has been spoken over you, for however long it's been spoken, the intimidation, verbal abuse, insults, doctor's reports, test results, all of it ends here. It's up to you. 

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

The Purpose of it All

I've found myself in a quandary lately. It's easy to do. When we get so focused on the busyness of the holidays we can often forget the reason we have them in the first place. No one is immune and it's easy to get so busy that we forget to be thankful to God for the blessings He gives us. Then we forget to celebrate the real Reason we have the Christmas season. If Jesus hadn't been born, we wouldn't be celebrating Christmas at all. What purpose then, would we have for living? And there is the quandary.

A sweet friend was recently having difficulty knowing what her purpose is. I think we all have that issue at some point in our lives. Often, it's as plain as can be but we just aren't ready to step into it. We all have a purpose. Before God created even time, He was already thinking about each one of us individually and He had a plan and purpose for us. 

The beauty of our purpose is that each one is different, yet each one is the same; all at the same time. Maybe that sounds confusing, but let me put it another way. We all have an anointing, a calling, on our lives. Mine is to write and encourage others with the healing story God gave me. It's a gift. Someone else may have the gift of healing, or praying for people. So how are they tied together? Both my gift, my anointing and calling, and yours are to be used to help others come to know Jesus and to bring glory to Him! Different, yet the same.

The purpose of it all is to point people to Jesus. I wouldn't be where I am today if it weren't for Him. Granted, I had to go through a lot of mud and muck, but eventually it all worked together for the good that you see now. So how did I get in a quandary? I allowed the devil to attack me.

When God calls us to use our gifts and walk out our purpose, we are on a road that leads to what God has destined  us to become. The enemy knows what we could be and that scares him. So, he takes it upon himself to sabotage us any way he can. That includes causing us to doubt ourselves. If he can cause us to slow down, slip up, or turn back, then he's thrown a kink in God's Divine plan for our lives.

But God is greater, smarter, and more powerful than the enemy! Don't for one moment think that if we slow down, slip up, or turn back that the enemy won. Because the enemy never wins! He's already lost. The greatest thing about the purpose of it all is that we are victors. We have already won. We are more than conquerors. We can't lose. Because even when the enemy thinks we've lost the battle, even when other people think we've lost the battle, we have really won!

We win because Jesus won! So whether we make mistakes (which we will) or not, God has a plan and purpose for it all. How far will God go to bring His plan into reality? How far will God go to show the purpose of it all? Oh I don't know, maybe being born in a lowly manger. Maybe on a cross on a hill where Jesus died for the sins of humanity. Maybe an empty tomb where He rose from the dead and walked out three days after being laid to rest. Or maybe coming back like He promised, to bring all His kids home where they belong. 

The purpose of it all is that we all have a purpose. We aren't just here by accident. We have a job to do. Our purpose is to use whatever means we have been given, whatever special abilities we have been gifted with, to tell others about Jesus.

If He can save me, He can save you. If He can heal me, He most certainly can heal you. If He loves me, He definitely loves you. You are important to Him and you most definitely have a purpose. 

Saturday, November 15, 2014

God Dots

Remember those little follow the dots puzzles we used to do in grade school? Maybe I'm dating myself here, but I loved those! I called them "dot-to-dot" pictures. Follow the dots, beginning at number one, and when you get to the end, you have a picture! Well, I believe that God does the same thing with us. He gives us little dots here and there, to get our attention, connecting the dots as He goes.

Just exactly how far will God go to get our attention or better yet, to work everything together for our good? I used to wonder that myself. When I was in the most hopeless time of my life, I wondered how in the world God was going to make something good of the depression that just wouldn't seem to leave me alone.

I often wondered, while feeling the worst anxiety attack welling up from deep within me, knowing I was powerless to stop it. I wondered just how God was going to use this for good. Then I would sigh as the panic eased off and lessened, thanking Him for letting it go away.

But the night I was healed and launched into the ministry of telling my story so others could be encouraged, I looked back and saw all the dots that God had been connecting throughout the years, creating a beautiful dot-to-dot picture!

God Dots... those little encounters, little pieces of our lives, people, places, and things, that God brings into and out of our every day. Each one of those things is one more dot that God uses to build our testimony, our story, our ministry.

God places people in our lives to steer us toward our destiny, to help us to grow and learn and to build our character so that when we encounter someone else who is hurting, we can help build them up.

You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. ~Genesis 50:20, NLT

Of all the intimidation, depression, anxiety, and other things I went through over the years, God was teaching me and giving me someone to look back on so that when I met another who suffered those things, I could say, "Hey, I understand that. I used to deal with that too. Let me tell you what God did for me."

It's not bragging on oneself to tell someone else how God has worked in your life. It's not being arrogant to tell another how God healed you. On the contrary, it's bragging on God! It's bringing Him glory and ministering to another who's suffering. 

The whole point of my ministry is to bring glory to God; to make Jesus famous. Because without Him, I wouldn't BE healed! However, I would not be where I am today without many other people and situations throughout my life. To list everything would take too long, but suffice it to say that each little and big thing that I have gone through were the God Dots that led me to this point in time. 

Look around you. Can you see your God Dots? Can you see the littlest of things that God has placed in your life that has led to the greatest things? You may not have thought that something bad in your life could have ended up being something good, but let me tell you this: What the enemy meant for harm, God turned it into good, or He's just about to! He's groovy like that. Because God doesn't give us the bad things in our lives, the enemy does. But God is so much bigger than the enemy and He can fix everything!

If you're going through a rough spell, don't fret! Look at it and know that it's going to be just another God Dot. Follow it backwards and look at all the other God Dots that it's connected to and get excited, because the next dot will bring you closer to something utterly amazing!

Be thankful for your God Dots!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Thank You, Veterans!

Being Veteran's Day, we honor those who have served in our military armed forces throughout the years and currently. We think of those who have gone before during whatever war, action, skirmish, or whatever we're calling it now. We pass by service men and women on a daily basis, some we thank, others we have no idea that they even served.

I recently had the privilege of sitting next to a young veteran on my train ride from Louisiana back to Illinois. Although he wasn't going very far, the time we did have on this train ride provided enough information into the life of this young man that I have an even bigger respect for those who serve in our military.

I can't imagine what happens to those who serve during times of war or combat. Frankly, I don't want to know. But whatever it is that they see or experience is enough to alter them for the rest of their lives. My companion on this train ride was retired Air Force, just back in the States from Japan. He served in the military for three-and-a-half years. He was twenty-six. His name was Nick.

Our veterans have given much more than just their time and skills to protect us and those we love. Our freedom is not free. Someone had to pay for that. Many someone's did. Our veterans. They have given their very lives, both mentally, emotionally, and physically for our freedom. Veterans throughout the years have been giving to continue our freedom. It's a gift that is continually being paid for in some form or another.

In the short amount of time I had with the young man who sat with me on the train, listening to him talk, however inconspicuously, about things he experienced and in general made me realize that this is exactly how my grandfather's both acted. They would talk to us, but there was always something else they weren't saying that lay just under the surface. They would speak in innuendos and in a roundabout way, never giving complete information. Just hints. It left lots to the imagination. They were young when they served in WWII but their memories stayed with them their entire lives. Just as this young man's would with him.

Whenever you meet a veteran, say thank you. They will act uncomfortable because to them, they don't see how what they did was helpful. Still, tell them thank you. Buy their meal. Buy their coffee or soda. Because without their service, we would not enjoy the freedoms that we enjoy right now. And above all else, respect their quirks. They are not weird. They are just trying to live; live with the memories of the things they have seen and experienced that we didn't have to.

It kind of puts it into perspective when you look at it like that. I know that it breaks my heart and increases my level of compassion for our veterans. They have so much to deal with that we will never know about.

Veterans Day. A day of remembrance. A day to say thank you. So with that, Thank you Grandpa Johnny, Grandpa Roy, Boots, Butch, Mark, Chaz, Mr. Mosley, Nick, Ravyn and Johan, Brian, and every military veteran we have. Your service is greatly appreciated and respected.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Changing Your Life

There many people, even friends of mine, who have been or are suffering with anxiety and depression. It breaks my heart, especially when I hear them say, "It runs in my family," or "I just deal with it and battle it every day, hoping for the best."

I can totally identify with this, which is why it hurts my heart so much for them. Because, I suffered in silence with this very thing for over forty years. 

Anxiety, depression, panic attacks, low self-esteem, no self-worth, oppression, and intimidation were among my constant companions. I didn't like any of them, yet it seemed as if everywhere I went, they followed me. Many times they would embarrass me so badly that I had to leave whatever place I was at, while ridicule and insults from others followed me out the door, oftentimes calling me on the phone to continue the diatribe.

I thought this was just how life was meant to be. I honestly thought that the hopeless feelings I had were just life. It ran in the family, so why wouldn't I have it? My grandmother and mother had depression, I heard them talk openly about it my whole childhood. They spoke it over me continually, "Just wait till you get older. This is what you have to look forward to. It runs in the family."

    Better a dry crust eaten in peace than a house filled with feasting—and conflict. ~Proverbs 17:1
People with depression and anxiety suffer. But they also cause those around them to suffer too, whether they mean to or not. In my family, those who were suffering weren't content unless everyone else was upset and anxious as well. And while there was medication for this problem, no one ever told any of us that God was not the author of our misery. Yet, I know that I often questioned Him as to why He allowed me to have this malady.

God did not give any of us depression, anxiety, or any other emotional or mental disorder. However, sometimes He does allow us to go through these things. Why? The answer is not always readily available. But one thing I do know is that though we suffer through the "black hole" or the "pit," God is always using this to move us forward into the calling He has for our lives.

It was two years ago that He literally healed me from the inside out, from the bottoms of my feet to the top of my head, and ripped all that junk right out of me! Yes! You can be healed from depression, panic, anxiety, oppression, and all the above mentioned things. God has a purpose for you, dear lovelies. He loves you most dearly, is crazy about you, and He does have a use and purpose for your life.

The LORD will work out his plans for my life— for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. ~Psalm 138:8 

You are not hopeless. You are not a mistake. Your circumstances are not fixed or resigned to "it runs in the family." It is time to lift your head and take a stand. Receive the healing of God over your mind, your emotions, your body, and all aspects of your life! Walk out your healing. Just because something "runs in the family" doesn't mean that it continues with you. Break the cycle. Break the chains. Don't let your history destroy your destiny!

I cry out to God Most High,* to God who will fulfill his purpose for me. He will send help from heaven to rescue me, disgracing those who hound me. My God will send forth his unfailing love and faithfulness. ~Psalm 57:2-3

I'm not saying flush all your medications.* I'm also not saying that medicine is bad, because you may just need that for a while. Find a good, Christian counselor. That's not so bad, either and they may help you work out your healing. And remember that God is the Great Physician, the Healer, and the name of Jesus is above all other names...including depression!

Thank God for healing you today! Read His Word on healing. Speak it over your life today and every day. If you don't know where to find healing Scriptures, email me at and I will send you a list. Trust me. They are very powerful. God's Word does not return void (Isaiah 55:11). Don't spend one more minute suffering anxiety! Read the healing prayer below and begin a new, healed life!

In the name of Jesus I bind depression, anxiety, panic, oppression, and every other malady associated with these things, and I cast them into the depths of the sea, never to return. I loose the Holy Spirit into my life to fill the holes left by these things. I release peace, a sound mind, calmness, and peace of mind. I take captive every thought. I thank You Lord for healing me, and I receive that and walk in it. No weapon formed against me shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against me shall fall. I do not have a spirit of fear. I have power, love, and a sound mind. I am the head and not the tail. I am more than a conqueror through Christ Who loves me, and I can do all things through the strength that He gives me. Thank you Lord for hearing me. I claim all Your promises, in Jesus' name, Amen and AMEN!

If that's you today, please email me. I'll be happy to pray for you, and send you more information on healing! You CAN change your life and live healed!

I am not an advocate of discontinuing medication for depression or anxiety cold turkey. Please seek medical advice, and above all pray first before doing anything. If you need more help, please call someone.

Tyndale House Publishers. (2013). Holy Bible: New Living Translation (Pr 17:1). Carol Stream, IL: Tyndale House Publishers.
Tyndale House Publishers. (2013). Holy Bible: New Living Translation (Ps 57:2–3). Carol Stream, IL: Tyndale House Publishers.
Tyndale House Publishers. (2013). Holy Bible: New Living Translation (Ps 138:8). Carol Stream, IL: Tyndale House Publishers.

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